School has officially started and boy is it a lot of work! I still cannot believe that I am already a sophomore in college!

Why does time have to pass so quickly? Before I know it, Im going to be in grad school. Its crazy how time passes. Why is it so hard for us to live every day to the fullest if we know how fast time flies? I wish I could freeze certain moments forever..these friends..this family..this moment..forever.

But, unfortunately I do not have that power...to stay in the happiness forever..so while I have the chance to say it..

I am SO thankful that I have the friends that I do. I am SO happy that I have a family who, although has faults, is the perfect fit for me. I am SO excited that I have been granted another day to be with these people. Sure, life has dealt me some hardships, but thats no reason to be completely negative all the time...I actually do have a lot of things going for me...I have people who love me..

and people I love so very much...

So to all of you (you know who you are)...

I Love you with all my heart<33

and I will never let you go...

 GET EXCITED!!!!!

School is coming up...

That means lots of reunions and late night parties, excitement and people who are skanks lol...and absolute, undisturbed BOREDOM...

I'm not really looking forward to long papers and late nights where I fall asleep in the class I stayed up all night to study for...oh boy

this is going to be one heck of a year!!! Get ready to be....

ANNIHILATED!!!!

ay bay bay

So I thought that I was used to being lonely...wow, I was incredibly wrong.

I have not gotten used to the sting of being left alone. I still feel it as it hits me like a blade piercing my skin each time someone leaves. Obviously, it has to be my fault. The one thing that all these people have in common is that they left me behind.

Unfortunately, I have tried to "fix" what is wrong with me, but nothing ever works...people still leave...Im still alone.

Why does this have to happen? I dont want to write about how lonely I've been for the past few months...I want to feel happy and like I am on top of the world...but does that ever happen? No.

People claim that I am such an "awesome" person but want to leave me in the dirt anyway...But I guess I should be more accostomed to it...first my family did it...and now everyone else is doing it

Leaving me to fight...

by myself.

What I really meant to say is I'm sorry for the way I am

I never meant to be so cold

Never meant to be so cold...

I'm sorry I suck as a person..the girl you have seen is not the real me...

The real me is..

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